Brain Injury Support Group

How do you recover from sexual abuse or molestation that happened while you were in a partially conscious condition in hospital where you can see and feel but are not able to move or resist or scream? It happened many times when I was in hospital for many months during a brain injury, and in various stages of consciousness on various nights, by a male nurse.
Do you know anyone who's been through a similar situation? Is there a way out?
What exactly happens to the brain in this situation? Can people ever recover from it?
How do you grieve afterwards if you can't cry because of a physical condition (or seizures or brain injury) where you physically cant cry though you really want to?
I just feel overwhelmed all the time and have to cope with the physical disabilities and all the emotional struggles, traumatic memories, nightmares, re-living memories, etc. Other times I'm just numb. A lot of times I just try and convince myself that nothing happened. That could be true after all. I only remember the last week. I'm haunted by not knowing or remembering what happened to me, and having only scattered memories and sensations and images. Could it be just my imagination? But how can it? Can memories be stored when you're not fully conscious and yet not unconscious either?
How do I get over it and move on? Any suggestions?
Getting counseling is not an option for me as I live in a place without any of those facilities and I don't have the money for it. I would definitely go for it if i could, but i have tried for several years to get it but never been able to.
I'm just overwhelmed and cant get past this trauma. It chokes the life out of me and i feel like i'm going to explode yet frozen and lifeless and blank.
After a few years as the scars on my brain started healing up, it has become harder.
Are there any medical or psychological explanations of what is happening to me?

I just want to live and get on with my life. Any advice?

Thank you.
Posted on 09/29/09, 06:09 am