Bone Cancer Support Group

so today im full of mied emtions i just found out to day my breast cancer has returned its now in my liver and my bones im just 37 how do anyone deal with this i told my family my mom and sister cried i know its not for me but out of guilt they had been treating my daughter and i sooo bad my sister was just saying last month how lazy i was and pretending to be sick i broke the news to my 12 year old it broke my heart she cried i cried she wanted to call her dad whom conviently dropped out of her life this past july he wanted to talk to me and he was like with a smirk i could hear in his voice is it that serious i was like dud what u think he was like oh well u been keeping destini from me i was shocked cause it wasnt true and i hate hate being lied on he said last he called in july he heard me in the back ground tell my mom she not talking to him which is not true beside we have a court order that we r both r suppose to follow he never has he has only gotten her every other weekend with some gaps like going a month r two without seeing her i dont even know why im surprised when i first had cancer i was on fmla i had no money coming in he went into our fride and it was fill to the brim he stole everything left me one package of meat it was food for me and his daughter how low is that and then if that wasnt enough i asked him to take me to grocercy store he said no i hate he lieing on me i hate it why i even care i dont know he also mentioned he wanted to keep her she said she didnt want to stay with him nor do i want her to for one u'd think he was one of those hoarders on tv theres so much trash he can hardly open the door to an apt he shares with his brother the rest room is sooo nasty my daughter has never sat on the toliet i seem cleaner port of potties im not even exazagerating and the tub looks rusted but its a newer complex its just dirt roaches and old food cover the counter dirty dishes everywhere when i would pick up desie he had to make rm on the only couch they have with springs popping out this all is just too much im going for a second opionion and i pray god at least let me live till she graduates from highschool i know im whining but y y me y now i look at all the evil people in the world look at my ex husband he probaly only wants our daughter because of the money he would get in the event of my death i just cant get away from drama im not afraid to die but im afarid for my daughter whose gonna love her like me and what happens when her father feeds her these lies and im dead cant speak whats the justice in this whats the lesson
Posted on 10/14/11, 10:32 pm