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Ok so a couple weeks ago something strange happened. I was sleeping in my bed and and the craziest feeling came over my entire body. I leaaped up out of bed and ran into the living room where my mom was. She asked me what was wrong (this was about 3 or 4 in the morning by the way) and I told her that I think an evil spirit was trying to get into my body. She laughed it off but I took it very seriously. In fact, I wouldnt even go in my room under any cicumstances because I felt unsafe for days. Then one day something even stranger happened, I have no idea why, but I though my mom was trying to trying to hurt me or something and when she tried to give me food or my meds I thought she was trying to poison me. But by the end of the day I realized I was being irrational and the thoughts stopped. This has never happened to me before.
Well, there was this one time after being hypomanic for 4 days I got these crazy ideas where I wanted to cut off all my hair and then I was writing letters to Charles Manson in wingdings. (lol I kno that's hilarious) I'm on seroquel and depakote. During both these episodes my doc cut my seroquel dosage in half. He thought this would be a good idea because I've never displayed any "pychotic" features before. He thought he could ween me off it because he thought I was taking it for nothing. So now I kno I need it and we've gone back up on the seroquel and that's helping. And dont worry I have an appointment with my doc coming up soon and we're gonna talk about this. But I just cant stop wondering why this is happening all of a sudden. I'm scaring the hell out of me and my parents!!! I've never had problems like this before. Has this happened to anyone else?? Posted on 10/31/09, 09:10 am |
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Oh sweetheart that sounds medication related. The sad thing about this illness is that we're always searching for the "right mix". Sounds like you do need the seroquel and I'm glad you're getting it. You are normal, just going through the relentless ups and downs this illness causes and sometimes it makes you feel wacky or have wacky thoughts. My daughter had similar problems in the beginning before we got her meds adjusted. She thought her little brother was crying to wake her up on purpose because he secretly hated her. He was 6 months old at the time! I could go on and on about some thoughts that she later felt were a little off, but she too was under medicated at the time. The important thing is that you told someone about it so you could get the help you needed.
You're never alone in this thing, there are always others out there going through similar, if not worse manifestations of this illness. But it's always the illness sweetheart, it's never you and the illness can be treated. Post in the "vent" thread if you want a faster response next time. Take care Hun. 
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Hey ^_^ You're only sixteen, right? Well, sometimes things get worse before they get better. I agree that it's a med mix needing some adjustments. Risperdol really helped me with those thoughts, I didn't realize it til I dropped it. The lithium was stabilizing in moods, the depakote kept me slightly in the happy zone instead of numb, but the risperdol's really what eased my paranoia and irrational thoughts. It's SO good to hear that you took notice, realized how obscure and abnormal the thoughts were, and took action in helping yourself by talking about it. I hope you know how fantastic that is!!! So many of us just turn into ourselves and disappear into the thoughts.
Alas, I want to note that you are young in this disease. Bi polar is going to throw some even crazier shit in time. Meds that worked once can loose effect, no matter what the upped dosage. You'll have to work through these times viligantly and know that they will pass!
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I love your message of "the worst is yet to come" TiredLittleTanager. I find it really funny (sad but most likely true ) but still funny. And yup I'm only 16 (17 in september). I was diagnosed last summer and probably went undiagnosed the year before that. I've been dealing with clinical depression since I was like 10 or 11 years old. Everyone ,including myself, thought the depression was pretty much unipolar. I only started having hypomanic episodes last year. I ended up being diagnosed after being hospitalized for a suicide attempt. They suspected I was bipolar after discribing my moods with the therapists and docs there etc. But they werent exactly sure as this disorder is sometimes over diagnosed. I totally proved them right after going manic in the hospital lol. I was literally sprinting down the halls all over the hospital with staff chasing behind me. It was the funniest shit lmao!
Anyways, so now I'm trying to reajust to my new reality. I'm an ultra-ultra or ultradian cycler. Meaning I can go from depressed to manic within a 48hr or even sometimes 24hr period (talk about exhausting!!). It also seems like I never stop cycling. This is also the hardest kind to treat. So a lot of meds like lithium arent good for me. But now I'm learning new ways to cope and when things get bad I guess the golden rule would be all things pass.
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I'm the same way! I noticed in jr high that any day i went to school feeling good, by the time I was in bed I was feeling bad, or vice versa.
I was really tired when I wrote that so I didn't mean it to be anything dire... The best is yet to come as well! The more you are concious of these things (not self concious, just, notice your behavior, ya know?) the better you will become.
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o kid! All I have to say is tal to your doc and pray to God he procect you from any thing!
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