Bipolar Disorder Support Group

do you really need us to tell you that's fucked up? No you're not alone certainly ... but this is not good. Could you please call yout pdoc and/or tdoc and talk this out with them?

it's not just you.

babychick please call your pdoc maybe they can tweek something to help you out! !

im scared of what they would say, im worried what they would do too.
i hate putting my family through this time and time agin but i cant seem to stop myself.

It sounds like you're starting to go down the suicidal path. Playing with meds. What if I take 6 next time? How about 8?
Please call your pdoc, something is not right. You can overcome this. He/she can help you.

when you dont want to reach out is when you need to the most....im worried about you babychick

been like this for as long as i can remember i would get this urge for something but never sure what i wanted so i would either drink, take drugs or both, or start messing with my meds.
why?

hey babychick...you need to take the meds as your doctor prescribed..if you take too many that can mess you up and hurt you..if you feel the meds you are taking now are not helping, and feel the urge to just take a bunch of them..then you def. need to call your pdoc back and just tell him, i don't think what i'm on is making me feel better...can we please adjust and tweak them..

i hope you feel better baby:) big hugs and peace for u, love, maggie

I learned a lot about myself in therapy. Why I was doing certain things to defeat myself and even hurt myself.
Can you see a therapist for a bit? I think there's something more going on than just your desire for extra meds.

we can't tell you why you do it but i have done it for many reasons. sometimes to mask the way the illness is making me feel/act, sometimes i feel so terrible about myself i just want to trash myself. sometimes i want to fill the empty vacumn inside with anything that might stop it feeling so big. it's not a healthy way to treat ourselves and it's generally difficult to pluck up the courage to talk to your doctor about it but it is generally a good idea to do this. anything we feel guilty about is something we need to get out in the open.