Bipolar Disorder Support Group

okay - to use the weightlifters' mantra: "no pain, no gain"

that's why there is pain - without pain there is no true growth. without suffering there is no true joy. without sin there is no forgiveness. without this world error & decay there is no reason for love.

all of these things must exist side-by-side - they are symbiotic. the perfect world is sterile - essentially empty of anything that we would value.



i know i may not be able to prove this, but i really feel this is true.

I have had many times when I was consumed with thoughts of suicide . . . at one point I wanted to kill myself so badly that my body ached for the release. When those feelings passed, I was so troubled that I had not been able to act that I thought I was a failure at suicide, too. Crazy-making for sure.

My pdoc told me that often when we feel so overwhelmed by suicidal thoughts, the depression has exhausted us to the point that we cannot physically act.on our suicidal thoughts simply because we just don't have the energy to do anything.

Obviously that is not always the case~~far too many are successful every day.

I had never really considered that the chemical imbalance in my brain can actually short-circuit my body and leave me incapable of physically harming myself.

I suppose this might sound crazy, but when you think about the utter lack of motivation and loss of energy it makes sense.

Tried it once and left no note and didn't even think about it before I did it I just did it. Obviously it didn't work.