Bipolar Disorder Support Group

I honestly used to function better in many ways before taking any psych drugs... however, at this point... I would be contented just to truly know the "right" meds for me..................... yes, I would be content to be contented.

My ex pdoc told me one day that there could be one day when all it would take would be one pill.

He has hope, so can I.

I finally resigned myself that I will be on meds all my life but is that so bad to feel better than without them?

OK -- I think I have good experience in this department. I HAVE been off meds for an extended period of time. It was difficult, but not impossible UNTIL I had some stress. My sleep went haywire and boom, not stable since. More over, I've had these issues since August, and I still haven't found a med cocktail to get me stable. Stick with the meds. Don't suffer like I am.

Tony I hate my meds. With a passion. I see Lithium as poison and the anti-psychotics as mind numbing and a form of punishment for being a naughty girl and getting sick again. I know that's not the way it is, they are there to help and keep me as safe as I can be but I still see them as awful. My pdoc has a wonderful time trying to change the mindset but we seem to have hit a happy medium with me accepting they are evil but necessary. I had the same problem with warfarin.

When I'm stable I can see they are necessary. I look at my chequered history and hope they can prevent more episodes.

When I'm not (particularly high) I go through a similar thing with wondering if I'm really bipolar, wondering if my pdoc thinks I'm just a pain in the backside and is giving me glorified sleeping pills so I'll go away, and hating the meds for clouding my mind.

If you had some other disease would you then want to be off those meds too? I would love not to be on meds. Sanity is worth more than the heartache I experience and I cause others to experience when I selfishly choose to be off meds. The key is choice, however. Good luck!