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I have never thought of it as a treat. I am not a cutter but I self injured for years. That is like an alcoholic saying, I have been good about not drinking, I will treat myself to just one drink. Or, a person with ED,saying, I havent purged for a long time, I think I will treat myself to it. It cant and doesnt work that way. Quitting has to be for good. Just one taste and it triggers the brain to start all over again.

We might consider it, think about it, but to act on it negates everything we have worked so hard to solve. If you still have these urges, try the rubber band method or talk to your pdoc.

There are alot of healthy ways to release.

Hugs

thanks shelly, i have tried all the methods and pdoc and i think that at least one cut is far better than the old forty times a day! i know it is an addiction and now am trying more distraction and will try to come on here when i am desperate rather than giving in to it!

NO I don't..... I try not to cut because of the work that I do..... 90% of people do not understand what we are going through..... Cutting has always been a release..... but I have struggled not to, because of what people think when they see the cuts, or stopping me from working because the cut are so deep.....

It's a struggle, I had a rough 2 weeks, wanted to cut but I didn't..

Stay safe :)

!!SFS!!

thanks helleron, i had cut to about two thousand cuts on my thighs and left arm so was running out of room when i realised i really had to try to stop. have stopped that severity now for fourteen weeks or thereabouts, it is good to be counting in weeks rather than days. pdoc says to look at recent lapse as a blip on the road and is v. encouraging about not feeling too bad about it. i have not found anything else that gives such relief from the pain of this disease. he emailed me some slides about sh and reading them helps, also listening to mozart and reading self help books. the worst place to hide the cuts is on the wrist, i have condemned myself to having to wear a watch and bracelets to cover them up!

I have cut a few times. Never much , but most of the time I get so upset and break something and will that will normally breal off and hit me. The urges have to be so strong ... but I will poke my arn *not* hard. And keep going untill the urge is gone. It is almost an addiction. Always never toooo deep. So no one take this advice because it's not ..just wanted to show of way of release without " HARMIN"

Pinching oneself cant hurt anyone but you

Cutting is a hard life...... I stopped hiding my wrist cuts..... they are right there.... unless I wear a long sleeve shirt.... so winter is good for hiding the scars.... but during the summer..... well you know.....


Shelly and Fish.... no worries, kinda of.... Cutting or being a SIer is part of what we are going through...... as I am suffering from the same thing..... We can help each other :)

!!SFS!!

Fish.... cutting hurts people that you are close with..... I know that when I cut.... I hid the wound very well, have all kinds of hospital grade creams and so forth..... but what is to deep..... till you go there.


!!SFS!!

i also am careful not to cut too deep as i do not want to go to er where they treated me like a criminal the last time i took od.

helleron, during the summer it is much more difficult and i don't try to hide them from most adults, let them think what they will. it is like an outward sign that this is a serious illness. i do however hide them from my kids as they do not need this worry in their lives. they have enough to contend with in this increasingly difficult world.

recently i have been cutting again. things have just been getting too much. im starting to lose hope for how strong i am