Friday August 28, 2015
Even though I am still on oxygen I walked 240 feet without sitting today and I was not that out of breath. My goal is 500 feet by Feb 10, 2010. Peggy my therapist said I did well today in spite of my very depressing mood.
I increased my steps to 360. I am able to walk without getting sob. I am trying for 420 which is my goal by the end of the week...... When I started I only walked 60 ft.
I have not written in my Journal in such a long time I have been feeling guilty about it. I am reading everyones updates and emails. If I did not thank you personally I want to take a moment to thank you for all of the birthday wishes that I received. I really had quite the birthday this year. I decided to deduct 10 years from my age and it worked. I feel 10 years younger!...
I as walking every day, sometimes twice a day and i am going farther each day, I am up to 3 miles a day right now, hope to up that to 4 this week. Besides helping with the weight loss ( i can't eat when i am outside walking 2 dogs!!) , it has really boosted my mood and helped me work through some job stress. I force myself to go out every day, I can come up with many excuses to not go...
I went to the wolf sanctuary and yes pet a wolf. He stared at me so I sat down and stared him in the eyes as paced back and forth, then he settled only for a moment to sit. He looked into my heart and could see I was troubled, tantalizing moment I must say, He peed on a tree I got up and hugged a tree. Now off to the zoo to talk to the mgr. to see what fear I can face and pet a elephant or giraff...
My Gran has been in a huffy mood because of the 100th Anniversary of WW1 and my Brother is moody when trying to sleep. Then my email stopped working when on Ubuntu. (I'm now on Mac o/s X and it works okay)
Now I am having the old insane thoughts returning. Now I need to practice breathing exercises.Two weeks and still going strong!It has been 111 days since my last cigarette. It has been a trial to say the least with all things medical and the urges to boot. When do those urges stop? Anyway I have tried to be a good role model for the newbies and not give in. I have persevered and NOT had one cigarette. Yay
Huggggss JasmineWow I can't believe I made it to 4 months. No cheating and I certainly could have because my brother still smokes. Usually by now I am ready to give up but not this time. I am good to keep going. I have not used an e cig in weeks. I don't even know how long it's been. Next I am looking at 5 months. YayI am actually 6 months smoke free. It has been a challenge this last month, only due to all the stress. I have not cheated and will not smoke.