Asperger Syndrome Support Group

I try to stay cocooned in my world. When I pay too much attention to what is going on around me I get depressed. I don't really pay any attention to the news.

I s'pose I should have added how I view the world without complications.

It's a very pretty place and there's lots of cool stuff to see and do.

I like to do things without complications or interruptions.

It seems to me that most of what we refer to as "The World" as humanity's product/construct whether for good or ill. I mostly view these areas like so many used car lots with slick salesmen. Places to avoid or take with extreme skepticism. I believe in the equal validity of my own little world. I hope that it may at some point in the future be possible for people to decide what their world will be and not just have it sold to them.
There are so many ways and things that we do that for the most part the reasons behind them have been forgotten or subjugated by some new precedent or simply lost in habitualement.

I belive that anything worth doing is worth approaching thoughtfully with a deliberate manner. Rushing and hurrying and pushing and shoving to get ahead seem to me to be degrading and full of empty promises.

I once tried the Thoreau thing and like him saw it as a great way to retreat and regain perspective but felt that I was not put here to hide in the woods. I could be very content there, I was for a while, but I somehow feel it necessary to "keep in touch" or "stand watch" over what is going on in the lives of others. Besides, living in the woods was a lotta work and I literally came back for cheeseburgers, movies, and books.

I chose to live in a larger city because of the vast amount of work that I can do independently and live in comfort and ease without punching a clock or having to be beholden to anyone. I work for less than my work is worth so as to not be chained by profit or to have to answer to anyone other than my sense of fairness, quality workmanship, and mutual respect.
I know the difference between what I know and what I'm capable of figuring out...the limits of what I think I know, the difference between what I'm capable of doing and what my disposition will allow me to do.

I am happy to leave people to their choices, their perceptions, their way...so long as the respect is mutual. Love to discuss, hate to argue...love to speculate, hate to guess, love to love, hate to NEED.

Yes, the world IS a facinating place and I too like to enjoy it without complications or interruptions. Fortunately I also see that there can be value in both and that living entirely without them would not quite be living.

Time is one of the fundamental things I think I "see" differently when I really dig deep. I value mine. I see that much is stolen not simply for other's purpose, but for no purpose at all. I can do purposelessness when it comes to my own time as well as another so why should I spend it to their's and be bound for nothing? My nothing at least gives me peace and gives my soul room to breathe. 75.2 years for American males. I've got 42 of that in...certainly not "old and wise" but hey, that's half that I pretty much muddled about because of trying on ways of life that other's came up with...my turn now.
I don't require much, just my time, my purpose, and my peace.

What's that bumper sticker? "If you're not pissed off, you're not paying attention." Well, I don't wanna be pissed off, but "the price of freedom is eternal vigilance." I've sort of developed a more stoic aspect in EXPECTING the typical so as not to be surprised or infuriated...not passive, yet I don't like to admit to cynicism so I call it an understanding of cause and effect.

hey, yeah, instead of getting pissed off that someone screws up every order at the drive through and consistently forgets to scan SOMETHING from my order, make a bet with someone that it is going to happen, so I can laugh when it does. Expect people to screw up because they typically WILL.

I agree with you, Sig -- people are cruel and they enjoy it. I went through a major meltdown for years, took me ages to recover, and it took hypnotherapy before I had any real resistance to what slime people are.

I view the world as black and white and no grey. This world is really hard for us Aspies to navigate. This world is really hard for me. Take care. Dawn

I view the world as a strange place too.... the things people do confusses me.....

-Relation Ships, I've been in a committed relationship for 3 years now, and I am still baffeled and confused when my girlfriend asks for a kiss. I know that it make her calm, or happy or something, but I do not understand why.

-How people walk.... people's walking style confusses me to no ends... I feel like people deserce to pass a test to be able to walk in public. Its like people walk and drink or something... and don't get me startefd with grocery stores....

That is just to name a few....

"I like to do things without complications or interruptions."

I couldn't agree more SigS.

An friend i met over the Internet once described dealing with such interruptions as "addressing gun ships" that had surrounded him. That's exactly what it feels like at times.

The world, to me, is either "out there" or "down there."

It depends on the day and the hour, and what's been on my mind in terms of what I need to do. When I'm engrossed in "my own thing," writing music usually, it's "out there" possibly waiting to pounce and interrupt. If, as is often the case lately due to classes, my mind is on historical matters, it's "down there," because I've put on the "wide angle lens," so to speak.

I never quite feel as though I'm really a part of it.

I experience the world as if it is all happening in code and no one gave me the codebook that would allow me to decipher the code.I know that how people say thing ans move has meaning but I seldom can figure out what ti is that they are trying to communicate. Very much related 2 this is that I can never figure out when ppl r saying something seriously and when they r trying to be funny..

sounds depressing, perhaps you have to change what your doing?... firstly its an overgeneralization that other people are closed minded yet you don't want to be so openminded that your brain falls out either! .... maybe buddha had something when it comes to the whole middle way thing afterall?....

anyway, the sun shining doesn't make the day good necessarily, and if your exhausted, maybe you do too much or expect too much from yourself? are you getting exhausted because you are doing things you feel you need to? what would happen if you did nothing?... just... experienced the day... ?... sure eat, and drink for bodily maintenance (and on a day where you aren't required to work at your job whatever it may be, assuming you have one)...
but other than that just... experienced the day... maybe you haven't met the right people who give you faith in humanity yet?...

Its really not all THAT bad out there, I'm just sorry your experience has been like this sofar... also, its possible that maybe you just need to be more open yourself to the good things? Not just see the stuff thats wrong around you? ...