Anxiety Support Group

So I'm sure I'll get judged for this, and trust me I don't know I can feel Amy worse than I already do but basically, I was dealt a crappy hand from the moment I was born, actually conceived. After dealing with emotions of abandonment ptsd,, depression, physical and verbal abuse I turned to pot and other drugs. I eventually got prescribed xanax and began only using that and weed. After a year and a half of numbing out and losing all motivation to live.. I had a semi intervention, and weened off benzos. Hardest thing i've ever done. That was what I told others when they asked me if id ever take pills again.. A year and a half later, I'm experiencing extreme anxiety and depression on a level i've never felt before. Ive also tried anti depressants with no luck.. Well tonight I was over at someones house and took their klonopin. I've taken .5 mgs tonight and have 5 more. I'msick to my. Stomach knowing I'm relapsing and can't control the anxiety or pain anymore. I feel guilty and nervous about taking someones medicine who trusted me. I just need support, I know what I did and am doing is wrong, but why do I have to suffer silently. Help. Oh and I have no insurance.to see a doctor.
Posted on 06/21/12, 02:39 am