Anxiety Support Group

It's been four months since I freaked out about having hemmorrhoids and my feelings for everything and anything most especially my boyfriend started to become weird...
Like I would know what I should feel like at this moment or that moment but I couldn't feel it at all.. It's like I'm so disconnected from my original feelings and now I just can't feel anything for everything and everyone that I love..

I know I'm not the kind of person to fall out of love so easily. Why would I be so confused about my feelings if I was? Jan 22, 2012.. I tweeted
"It's the best day of my life! Thanks babe for making me so happy." And then Jan 29 was the day that I noticed my feelings were gone..
How could things have changed so fast? Can anxiety REALLY do this to a person? Will I ever feel as I did BEFORE the anxiety? How will I know when it's gone? Seriously... I just want to feel everything I used to feel for him. Does it sound like I fell out of love with him? I'm so confused.. I can't even feel excited for anything anymore.. like going to college or anything! I'm just so tired of feeling empty and numb because I used to be so emotionally attached. It's like a part of me was taken away and I just need some help..

Nowadays, I just feel empty.. like there's no tightening in my chest anymore like there used to be.. You know, I'd much rather have that chest tightening because I KNOW I'm still sick... but now it's gone and I'm wondering if I'm okay already ..and if I'm okay already.. why can't I feel anything for him still? I'd honestly want any other sickness (that's not deadly) rather than this! Why did it have to affect my love for him... I'm so desperate to get that feeling back because I hate not feeling the love for him... He was the only thing I was sure of in my life and now... everything's all messed up and I don't know how to deal with it!

My feelings steer me through life and now that it's gone and messed up, I don't know what to do anymore and I'm stuck! I hope you guys can help me with all of my questions.. please help me to be who I was before this detatchment and numbness..How do I reach that? I just want to be ME again! This isn't me... I know it... HELP! :'(

Things used to look weird and feel different... now they just feel different. Like... it's not how I used to feel about this place or this event... It's just so different! Everything changed and I want it back...

If you WANT something that means you're not happy with the way things are right now but why won't my body just let me feel how I used to be?! That's what I want and I know that's how I should feel..
Help me please :'(((

I don't want anyone else.. that's the thing. In my past relationships, I only break up with someone if I'm in love with someone else. I NEVER get tired of a person.. EVER. I'm just so confused right now because my feelings just dissolved in such a short period of time when I was SO in love with him.. I told him I would never leave him and I meant it with all my heart and ever since this happened it's just so hard because I know so much that I love him but why can't I feel it?! I'm so torn apart because I hate getting stuck in the middle.. This is making me doubt everything I know...

all i know is the medication i take
celexa
wellbutrin
numb my feelings.
i hate antidepressants and wish there was another way
because they make you feel so empty inside
hope you feel better
H

I'm not on any medication.. I was on alprazolam for a while but all it did was take away the chest tightness. When I stopped, it came back but now it's gone again and I don't know what to do..

Nik, I am pretty sure I have given you advice before so I won't make you listen to all that again... :)

But can I just ask you, what have you been doing in the last few weeks and months since all this started, to bring your anxiety levels down? I know deep down you know, or at least strongly suspect, that this is anxiety because otherwise you wouldn't be posting on the anxiety board. So what are you doing to bring your anxiety levels down so that you can feel like yourself again, instead of just feeling the effects of over thinking, mental exhaustion and adrenaline?

You are so busy focusing on the symptoms of your anxiety........are you doing anything to deal with the cause?

And there is no cure for anxiety. You can recover, but it can come back at any time if you don't take care of yourself and do the things you need to do to stay emotionally healthy. In my first 4-5 years of anxiety, I thought I was "cured" many times. Only to be slapped down out of the middle of nowhere with a whole new symptom that took over my life for the next 6 months. I made the mistake of thinking that once I got over a symptom, that my problem was gone. But the symptom wasn't my problem. I was the problem. Once I figured that out, and realized that I would have to work on this every day for the rest of my life, I no longer got blindsided when symptoms come back.

My symptoms actually started coming back about a month or so ago, but I am not surprised because I had become lax about my anxiety exercises and behaviors. So I get what I get. I deserve it. And whenever I get lax in the future I can expect the same thing. Its sounds a bit depressing when you put it that way, doesn't it? lol But its really a good thing because it makes me take care of myself and I need that in my life.

It's really hard not to think about not feeling anything because I see and talk to him almost everyday.. The only thing I feel is hurt when I look at him and not feel anything because I know I should.

I've been trying to forget about it and just live life like I used to before the anxiety happened but everytime I stop thinking about it... my feelings still don't come back and I start freaking out again.

I can't not think about it for a whole day because once I start ignoring it for a long period of time but my feelings are still not there, I give up ignoring it because I don't feel like it's working.. I don't know if that's wrong or what but... Ugh I'm so confused :'(

Let me just say that I totally get what you are saying. I understand what is going on with you, and how upset it makes you and I can definitely see why you are so upset. It would upset me too.

But again, you are still just focusing on the symptom. This is a symptom. Its not going to go away until you work on the cause of the symptom. You are not going to make a cold go away by blowing your nose. And you are not going to make your anxiety go away by trying to figure out why you don't feel like you love your boyfriend anymore. You have to make the anxiety go away, and then your feelings for your boyfriend will be able to surface.

Have you talked to any therapists or done any reading to help you understand the way anxiety works and how it can make you feel the way you are feeling? I think that is where you need to focus your attention.

I feel like i'm harping and I don't want to do that to you, so I will leave it at that, but I wish you luck!

May I ask what you did to recover from anxiety? Or do you have any suggestions as to what I should do exactly for this certain effect that the anxiety has done to me?

Would hypnotherapy help?