Alcoholism Support Group

I'm having a rough rough time in recovery. I get sooooo many different opinions from people about the issue of depression, especially from people in my a.a. Many people are telling me that it's a period for spiritual growth and continue to work the program. Dr. is telling me I have clincal depression and should treat it. I've been working the program for a few months and have gotten through many of the steps but I literally feel like death every single moment of everyday, haven't slept in months, low appetite, just physically and mentally broke. I believe in the concept of a higher power restoring me back to sanity through a spritual experience but when do you draw the line and treat the severe depression as what it is? It runs in my family w/ my father and older brother and I've also had episodes in the past but nothing of this magnitude. I'm sure people have just ended it being in a rut as long as this nearly a year now. I really think I need to take some action and get treatment but I almost feel like some of the ppl are considering me weak but I guess no one really can know how I feel except myself. I don't know I guess I'm just drained and I think I should really get some medical attention. Any advice would be appreciated.
Posted on 11/04/09, 10:11 pm