What is Alcoholism
Alcoholism is a powerful craving for alcohol which often results in the compulsive consumption of alcohol, an addiction. The cause of this craving is heavily debated, but the most ...
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Alcoholism is a powerful craving for alcohol which often results in the compulsive consumption of alcohol, an addiction. The cause of this craving is heavily debated, but the most ...

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today i would have had 69 days clean and sober but this past weekend i got drunk. my fiance is the only person that knows and he just went through detox. im so proud of him. but i just cant bring myself to tell anyone that i relapsed AGAIN. i just cant seem to get this shit. im discoureged and angry at myself and let down and ashamed. and i know i need to tell my sponsor im just so ashamed and especially scared to tell my mom. my conscience is eating at me so bad and i want to do the right thing.
anyone have some experience, strength, or hope for me? Posted on 10/30/09, 05:10 pm |
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And what is the next right thing?
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I was offline for a week or so and didn't read this post till now.
I hate that word, you know, the "relaspe" word. My vote would be to call it something else since it implies more than how it has affected me when it has happened to me thus far. In the past couple of months I've had one glass of wine one evening (socially) and then more recently 3 glasses of wine (upset factor). If I had continued to drink afterwards and had gotten drunk and or had blacked out like before, well, that would be relaspe to me. But I was able to not go there and jumped right back onto the bandwagon. For me, telling friends and family that I had relasped would mean something different to them than to me. Relaspe would mean maybe Alice had to go to the hospital again. Or she had blacked out again...or overdosed again. I guess I was lucky not to go down that dark road again with the little that I had in a short period of time. Many are not so lucky, I know because if my dad took one drink, he couldn't stop. I know I can't drink, not even a little. It was easy to stop because it made me feel so ill again. So I just did it and moved on. If my family asks me how I've been I'm honest. But if they don't ask, I don't tell. I share with my closest friends and here on DS. There are no rules about how to do this sober thing. Follow your heart and do what feels best for you. It is your journey in life and I wish you the best. Try to not take that nasty creature "guilt" along for the ride. :-)
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I know exactly how you feel! If you haven't done so already. Be honest with everyone, including your new sponsor....honestly does set you free....It happened to me 19 days ago.....good luck in rehab and we will be here when you get back for additional support!
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