Alcoholism Support Group

First, I would guess the fault here is not your own. I also struggled greatly with various things and had much relationship trouble even while attending as many as fifteen meetings every week ... then I ultimately found relief after finding a sponsor who could show me how he actually took the Steps straight from the book ... and that is as sure to work for you as it has, and as it still does, for me.

Thank you for commenting. I know not everyone understands alcoholism. I guess this time anothers response took me by surprise.

The remorse and regret can be a killer. You are not alone. It's unfortunate that many folks don't understand the nature of this disease. Get with some friends and try not to be alone during this time of distress.
B

A freind of mine picked up a dink last night,A slip unless it goes full blown into a relapse-

A mutual freind and I have been talking this morning about the insanity which preceeds the first drink as described in the big book-

It's that cunning baffling and powerful disease we have,Dont be too hard on your self these slip's or relapses are bumps on the road-to
Obviously best if we Dont but I have had many many relapses slips,and it's always ,leading to a spiritual awakening ,growth And understanding .
God bless

Wow, I already know I can't drink just one. Maybe for the first day and then the next day two or three, then four, then the whole bottle and then wanting the drugs.........I have wanted a drink lately---probably because of the holiday------but I played the tape and instead have come on here to offer some experience........It is day 43 and I don't want to ruin it..........Tina

Hi monkey and welcome. You have insight about what led to your relapse "insecurities/fears and lack of focus" and you mention your getting help. There's action right there. Hey, relapse is a real part of alcoholism, and it can be interrupted at any time. Learn from it, and change a few things yeah. Keep persevering, and reaching out for help. Stick around, there's some wonderful people and support at DS. Coogee xxx

Hi Monkey i can relate entirely, istarted dating someone a couple of months ago and thought i could start drinking socially again (i didn't want to admit i was an alcoholic). My insecurities started to creep in with the relationship and night after a few drinks we got a bit scratchy with each other.....i couldn't cope and this led to a full blown relapse for me. He was apalled by my behaviour and we are no longer dating. Luckily now he knows my problem and we are still friends so he is supporting me now.

I'm going to use it as a learning experience and will always be on the look out to make sure i don't do the same again!

Thank you all for replying. I know I am not alone and have the support of my family, even my ex-husband. I know things will be ok again and back on track. I even know it is a good thing that I saw how my boyfriend reacted in the situation. God works in mysterious ways and I will definitely use this as a learning experience. I can't expect all to understand my problems, but it just hurt that if someone says they love you, and is a big christian how they couldn't find it in themselves to be there for you. The hardness of his heart really hurt. I never expected it.

hi monkey, welcome and I am sorry to hear you have your heart has been hurting. we have all been there, expecting someone that loves us to understand and be more compassionate when the disease sneaks back in. some people will always be there for us and some people just pass through our lives like water. letting go of our expectations about people frees us. easy to say but very peaceful when we get there.