Alcoholism Support Group

Hi Starzz, 4 years ago I decided I didn't want to drink any longer and quit. After several months decided that I really could have the occasional drink. That worked for awhile...then gradually drank every nite ..... then drank until I passed out with blackouts. It is progressive at least for me. You may need to find out for yourself.

I agree while it may not be logical when you are depressed you "need" that drink. Really crazy is I really want to drink when I'm tired even though I know alcohol is NOT a pick me up! Each person has to decide on their own and in their time enough is enough...

A lot of people who struggle with depression drink alcohol thinking they will find some relief. Most of us who are self admitted alcoholics have gone that route at some point. The thing is, alcohol is a depressant. It makes the symptoms of depression worse. So, it is jsut about the worst thing a depressed person could ingest....especially if you're on antidepressants. The interaction between the two could be fatal.

I think nod's question was meant to be helpful, although he can speak for himself here. It is so easy to misunderstand each other in this medium.

Just wondering...how did you do on the test? How many questions did you say, "yes" to? Not sure if you want to share or not, but when I was still drinking, I answered "yes" to 15 of the questions and I still wasn't convinced that I was alcoholic. lol The disease is baffling, cunning and powerful to those of us who actually have it. Not saying you do Starzz. Only you can can decide if you are alcoholic or not.

Ok, I'm just going to crawl back into my hole and pretend like I never posted anything. I guess my feelings are better kept secret, and I'll live with depression until I die.

you will look back at this and see what you are trying to achieve...you come here asking for support,but get pissed at some of the suggestions....taking things to heart too much will only hurt you more sometimes...take what you need and leave the rest.............the reason i have drank is because i was depressed,and i was depressed cuz i drank..........

Why do you feel like hiding, Starzz? It's not your fault you suffer from depression. Many of us do. There is treatment available. Sincerely, you don't have to suffer.

This might not feel like support...but I think it is safe to say that those of us who are posting here are trying to help not hurt you. Let us know the kind of support you need if you don't feel you're getting it. We'll try to be there for you.

well when i hide then i dont have to face all this shit. all it does it get me upset and makes me cry. this site used to help me, but now i just get upset all the time with it. if i just go hide and cry then i dont have to face anyone, and i wont have to share my mentally disturbed thoughts with anyone. maybe i was just lonley and wanted soemone to talk to, but now i feel like a complete idiot

If you read my profile as you say you did then you will see that I too "suffered" from depression for years. I too found a way out by self medicating. The thing is I found a way out. If your feelings were hurt there is nothing I can do about that. We here have ALL had our hurts. Been to hell and lived in the pit. Are we here to molly coddle people or is really back to that old saying "The TRUTH shall set you free" . Your reaction is the same as many. And here is another truth. You have just given yourself another excuse to run away. To go to the bottle so you can drink at me/us. Should you choose to do so you need to know this. IT IS YOUR DECISION TO DRINK and sounds like your looking for one any way. The statement about depression was in your profile. Alcohol depresses mental faculties as well as physically. You drink you exacerbate the (what MAY be primary diagnosis) symptoms of depression. I ask a question out of concern not malice. Think about it.

Hey Starzz, Nod must have struck a chord of truth for you to get so "pissed". Maybe worth another look when you're ready. In the meantime, do what you feel you have to do but why not try this.....
if you think you want to drink again, please think it all the way through to say, what might have happened that gave you the want to to stop in the first place? We truly are on your side. We care enough to be honest with you. Peace

Oh sweetie, you are not coming across as an idiot at all. It is obvious that you are in pain. All of your feelings are OK. They're neither right nor wrong. They just are.

I think that when we try to hide how screwed up we feel, it makes us feel worse. It's really important to get it all out. It allows for some release.

Do you have a counsellor, Starzz? Sometimes, we need to talk to a professional, someone who doesn't have a bias and who isn't invested in our stuff (like friends and family). I also hope you will talk to your doctor about your concerns about if you are alcoholic or not. I hope you're not, sweetie, but if you are, it's important that you know that there is a way out for you. You don't have to suffer either with depression or alcoholism. Help is available.

Be kind to yourself tonight. Maybe you could go out for a walk with a girlfriend. Try not to stay stuck in the dark thoughts. You can put them in a 'god box' until you are ready to deal with them.

i dont hav ethe desire to drink right now. if i wanted to i would get in the car with my debit card and go to the beer store. but i dont want to do that, because it wont achieve anyhting. all that would happen is i would get drunk for a few hours, waste money and sleep and probably be more pissed than what i am now. im dealing with the fact that my father has beeen missing for 6 years now, hes nowhere to be found. i have prepared myself that he has passed, he was a bad alcoholic. i dont want to turn out like him,maybe im jst scared to face the truth