Alcoholism Support Group

Sorry to hear about your episode, but sometimes these things are necessary to get through that stuborness in our brains. Your next step should be to start learning to really live. Drinking, and so called"Partying," isn't living. it's just a stupid myth that we can fall into because we beleive it's fun, and may well be at first, but real living is just that. Being real. I was never real drinking. Only thing on my mind most times was drinking, taking care of my hang over, and figuring out how I was getting my next drink. i wanted to be a real person. Loving, careing and respectful, but it just doesn't go hand in hand. Times I have had sober are treasurable to me. It keeps me trying, and I've fallen lots too, but those memories that I was able to be the good person I always wanted to be are real. That's what I want out of life. To be able to care, love, and be there when people need me is what I want.you can try A.A. or find a differant recovery group that suits you, but make sure that it's something that you can learn to live right, and grow. Not in a bar listening to garbage talk, killing yourself slowly. A very lonely life in the end. Good luck my friend. I wish you all the best, and yes, I think you found your answer. James

Thank you all for your opinions, guidance, and wisdom.

To Carebear, I don't mind your bold, in your face approach at all and thanks for your posting. Just to clarify a couple of things though...no, I was not on a laptop in the er I was using my iPhone. Also, I'm not sure exactly what time it was when whatever happened to me happened, I just know that I woke up yesterday (Thursday) morning in my hotel room sore and with that all to familiar WTF happened last night thought. Then I looked in the mirror and saw the damage. I then called my mother who lives 4.5 hours from where I am on business and told her what happened and that I needed some help. I felt kind of pathetic that at 32 I'm calling my mom for help. Of course she wasn't at all surprised and told me that I should come home for the weekend. So I drove the 4.5 hours home and when her and my stepfather saw me they thought it best that I go to the er and get checked out so she drove me there. So at that point I didn't smell of alcohol. I didint see the need in telling the dr that I was an alcoholic.

I decided that I'm going to go to my first meeting tonight.

Again thank you all.

One more thing, I am trying to fin a meeting to go to tonight but all I seem to be able to find is adresses. I'm just wondering if the meeting that I'm seeing on this calendar are actually happening tonight being that it's a holiday weekend?

Sympathy is between shit and syphilis in the dictionary.

Feeling sorry for you at this point won't serve you or anyone else. Get to a rehab asap. Work a program, stop lying, take some action and start giving a shit.

First off, there are almost always meetings on all hollidays, for us poor saps with no family, or those that want/need a meeting that day. Holidays are triggers for A LOT of people.

Next, I agree with the advice to be honest with everyone. And if you start in AA or some other form of recovery before that, you will show that you are willing to go to any lengths to heal yourself.

Last, I worked in a highly professional occupation, that required finger printing and back ground checks. I thought I was getting away with coming into work with a hangover (and sometimes, still drunk) for many months. Then, I got called into the office because I smelled of alcohol and weed. I stated I hadn't drank THAT day. DUH... I got a warning.

Just 4 months later, I got a DUI and I was honest with them...called them hours after I got out of jail, when the office opened. They thanked me for my honesty, took away my company vehicle and changed my shift so I no longer had to drive. But I STILL didn't quit drinking.

Then, a month later, the alcohol was starting to make me violent and I hit a client (child) after they hit me first. I had been drinking the night before and had completely lost my temper.

I also lost my job,(And a FAT promotion I was about to get) my apartment, my license, my car and my cat.

I hope that you find that AA meeting and go in with an open mind and open ears and closed mouth (at first). Listen to others stories...hear what they were like and what it is like to be sober now (16 months for me and I feel GREAT).

Good luck to you.

Sounds like a pretty light night to me,, HA> but serious though.
OK brother, just know that everything happens for a reason. All the horrible things we do in our life, are just steps along the way to the end. It is our life story and it is up to us on how it will come out.
It is up to you to have faith in something bigger than you to help you change into a happy, joyous and free individual.
You have a decision to make; seek misery or seek solutions.