Alcoholism Support Group

Good for you for getting it out how your feeling Yeh those fabulous feelings come and go especialy in early recovery
Sounds like your doing lots of positive things and not dwelling in it This can so easilly turn to self pity in my exp anyway
Your in AA so you may have heard "this to shall pass" Its so true however good or BAD we feel it wont last so as long as you keep doing the next right thing speak to your sponsor help spmeone in or out of AA It will change again and again keep it odaat

One thing that might help as well is keeping a journal. Express your feelings and they lose much of their power. Add exercise and spend a few moments each day just quietly reflecting. All this in addition to the suggestions from my sober sisters helped me.

It will pass. I agree with the other suggestions - exercise, journal, prayer, reach out to at least one alcoholic, plus your sponsor, every day.
Oh and step one.. It's not an action step. Suggest you move through it and onto 2, 3, 4 etc. My sponsor walked me through the first three in a few days. Didnt want me "stuck" in the powerlessness, once I fully accepted I was/am powerless over alcohol, and clearly my life was unmanageable.... So we moved forward. The first real relief for me personally came in 4 and 5.

You will have days like that. Is it possible you've developed depression? The suicidal thoughts are part of it. I had to quit so my anti-depressants would work. It is common for a recovering alcoholic to develop depression and need anti-depressants. Ted

IMOnly,
The thought of staying on step one for 43 days makes me a lil ill.
The only way you are gonna get any relief is to get moving.
I would ask my sponsor how we could progress to step 2.
A long time ago I had an NA sponsor that wanted me to spend 1 year per step, that cat is dead.

This is very common what happens with the "pink cloud" deal we numbed ourselves for so long then all of a sudden your feelings come real again, that's the good news.

The bad news is this passes and you have to learn how to deal with the down times, I've found mine by doing the steps.

A lot of people don't like to hear when things are going good and someone mentions "this to shall pass" just reality we learn to deal with it.