Alcoholism Support Group

My husband is an alcoholic. He drinks all weekend long. I believe he thinks because it's beer, and just on weekends, then it isn't a problem. He'll drink a twelve pack or more on Saturday and then another one on Sunday. The house reeks like a barroom and my husband acts like a jackass. He has congestive heart failure and shouldn't be abusing himself like this but he's been drinking since he was old enough and now at 58 I don't think he'll quit. He stopped a couple of times for a few years but went back to drinking. He can be such a nice guy but he can also be cranky and I know he has depression, but he totally refuses to seek help, I have OCD and my anxiety goes right up when the drinking starts. I love him but I'm sick of him. He wastes his life in front of the TV all day and then whines that he's bored. He has big ideas and dreams about what he'd like to do but in the end he does nothing.

I need an alcoholic's perspective. I dream of leaving him and going off on my own but then I think about the good things and know I would miss him. I sometimes even dream that he just ends up in a nursing home where he'll be safe and I'll be free. Sometimes when he's sober we talk about it and he admits there's a problem and he doesn't want to be like this and at other times he gets pissy and refuses to discuss it and says he likes his "few" beers and it's just a couple of days. he used to drink 7 days a week but the CHF makes him control himself more.

Maybe deep down he's trying to kill himself. He won't seek help so there's not much I can do I guess.
Posted on 05/26/12, 08:39 pm