Adoption Support Group

i was wondering if anyone is experiencing the same thing that i am.
i am a male that was adopted when i was 4 wks old.
i hate women.
i am starting to think that it has to do with abandonment issues.
my bm gave me up. my apoptive family did their best in raising me. but man i am not a well rounded guy like my kids are as i was brought up in a very very religious home and was really not exposed to a normal family life. my relationship with my adoptive mom is congeneal. we have really had our differences and i dont like her. i love her, but i dont like her.
i got married at 22 and divorced at 36. my wife wanted the seperation. i wanted to try and make it work, but it takes two to do that, so that didnt work.
i have not had a successful relationship since. the last woman that i had a significant relationship with caused me to claim bankruptcy.
i found my bm and bf. they got married to each other 3 years after i was born and had 3 more boys. i only found them about 3 years ago. that relationship is somewhat strained and didnt turn out like i imagined.
that story is a long one that i cant get into here, but lets just say i could write a book.
so lately i have been thinking that the significant women in my life have just not much cared about me.
am i crazy, am i just laying blame? am i looking for an easy answer to my problems. i dont know.
i am seeing someone professionally, and they know my situation, however i think i may have to discuss this all again with her.
what triggered this is that the girl i am seeing now; we had a huge fight and i dont understand why this keeps happening to me. the only common denominator here is me. so i have to assume that there are underlying issues that i need to deal with.
i dont trust anyone, especially a woman. but i believe that it has to do with more then trust.
anyone having the same problems?
anyone?
Posted on 10/04/09, 07:10 pm