Abstinence & Celibacy Support Group

I've been in an abstinent / celibate state for almost 4 years.

I believed that "no more" was a good thing and a healthy choice. I now know that I was mistaken. I did not expect that abstaining or celibacy could be harmful. But for myself, it has been.

There are some benefits. I can honestly say that I am not pleased with casual sex. I know exactly what I'm missing and I'm not missing a thing. For that, I am glad.

I processed a bulk of abuse issues but then something happened and the worst came to surface. I never intended to study insanity but this is exactly what I've found. Insanity is a real sexual disease. So far, I have determined that abstinence and celibacy are NOT the proper cure or treatment for this ill. In fact, for myself, I have found that it is the primary driving force of insanity.

I know that I need to be touched, if I am going to get through this. And I know that it will "hurt". This is made complicated by the fact that a random person in a casual encounter is not the person for the job, but finding the most suitable person could prove to be impossible.

The idea of "no more" forever is unacceptable for me. To me, that is not health and I'm truly not interested in being a nun (none). Going without having my sexual needs met pushes me into perversion and maintains a state of ill. The only right thing, I have concluded, is touch.

I sometimes wonder if sexual touch therapy exists. I think it would be miraculous.
Posted on 06/07/12, 05:32 pm